Was I really there for the Birth of my Children?
Did I really go on that Family trip to Portugal?
Did I miss our "once in a Lifetime Disney Vacation" in 2005 and the return to Disney Trip in 2007?
Oh, I was there... but those very few pictures of me have all been deleted or (I'm embarrassed to say) I photo shop them.
It is sad, sad to think that my kids have very very few pictures of me with them while they were little.
Growing up I was considered average size.
I was never active as teen and hated gym class. I didn't play sports and didn't ride my bike or roller blade or anything like that. I was always to worried about getting hit with the ball or getting hurt or making a fool out of myself, so I was more of a spectator.
This picture was taken December 31st, 1991
I started gaining weight shortly after I met my husband in 1992, back them I weight 115lbs. By the time we got married, 5 years later I was at 135lbs.
In April of 1999 after coming back from Vacation with my sister and My Girlfriend I had a hard time looking at the pictures, I weight 180lbs.
I actually stop weighing myself so I'm not quite sure if that was my heaviest.
These pictures were taken a month apart, one in April 1999 while on Vacation and the other at a Wedding in May 1999I HATE these pictures!! When I look at them I don't see me. I'm not sure who that person is in those pictures. I didn't feel like that. I felt great and confident, I didn't see myself like that.
I'm not sure how I got there, I guess the fact that we were always eating out as newlyweds, going to the movies and weren't very active people helped towards me putting on 45lbs in 2 years!!
During my 1st Pregnancy I actually lost weight, a combination of eating healthy and walking during my lunch hour to keep active.
When my daughter was born in February 2000 a very healthy 7lbs11oz, I weight 165lbs. After having my Son in 2003 I was still at the same weight and content at being there.
The turning point for me was gearing up for my sisters wedding.
I remember so clearly going with the Bridesmaids for a dress fitting and the dress my sister loved for us to wear only went up to size 12. WHICH obviously was WAY to small for me, I believe at the time I was a size 14/16.
I felt awful and insisted we should get the dresses and I would loose the weight for the wedding which was ONLY 2 months away.
The very next day I started the South Beach diet.
My sisters Bridal Shower July 2007, I photo shop the picture...
my sisters Stagette August 2004
Wedding September 2004In 2 months I ended up loosing 15lbs on The South Beach diet and fit into the size 12 dress.
This diet worked for me. I didn't have to count calories, I just watched my portions. I ate whole grains, lean protein and healthy fats. I had no problem following the plan and it never made me feel deprived. Mostly importantly it taught me how to eat.
During the last 6 years I've maintained my weight between 145lbs - 155lbs still following a modified South Beach diet.
However it was only in 2008 that I joined a Cardio and Conditioning class at the local Rec Center once a week and started to walk on the treadmill 3 times a week.
I realized that no matter how clean I ate the only way I would see any change in my weight would be to incorporate some form of exercise.
I mostly still follow the South Beach Diet ways - I load my plate with veggies, healthy carbs, lean protein and healthy fats and snack on Fruit during the day.
I have also moved towards eating more whole foods, eliminating processed foods and Chemicals.
In December 2009 I took up running and it truly has made an incredible impact in my life... this is me now:
Siss & Me and the kids April 2010
to be continued ...